Welcome to my blog. Fortheloveofajunkie will be a raw, personal look at what it is like to love a person in the throws of heroin addiction. It’s a dark, confusing, heartbreaking, frustrating, desperate world. It’s a world full of secrets and lies. Sadly, it’s a world many are attempting to navigate everyday. Ten years of my life were almost exclusively dedicated to combatting the consequences of drug abuse. Most of my energy was geared toward successfully hiding my reality. Conducting myself with a “business as usual” attitude while my personal life fell apart at the seams. Thousands of dollars, too many “shut off” notices on the door, three lost jobs, countless missed friend and family events later, I felt I had nothing else to lose and decided to come out in the open with my truth. Maybe not publically, but I started to open up to my friends and family about a year ago. This did not solve the problem, but it gave me invaluable support throughout the next 8 months of mayhem. Now, with all the chaos at a lull, I feel stable enough to put my experience into written words. To share, now publically, with people that may be going through a similar HELL. With people that know someone living through it. And, perhaps most importantly, for people still not fully ware of this epidemic and how it invades homes across the nation. I will write the blog anonymously. Not because I am ashamed, but because there are people involved in this story that are still not ready to be honest with themselves about what has transpired.
My only hope is that this blog bring solidarity to a group of humans out there not knowing what to do next and feeling alone in the struggle. You are not alone. My heart is with you. I have walked that dark path toward the rabbit hole. I fought tooth and nail. I screamed into the darkness “YOU CAN NOT HAVE HIM!!”. I did more than I knew I was capable of. I did it all fortheloveofajunkie.